I really like that Seinfeld show. It fills me with mirth. Today I realized why. George and Jerry live inside my head. George is always looking out, always looking to see what he can see, while Jerry kind of sits at the back reading a magazine.
I’ll give you an example. Today I was at a location which I will not disclose when I bumped into a lady. I call her lady because that’s respectful, not because she’s old. Anyway.
The George inside goes, “Oh my GOD! She’s beautiful, she’s the most beautiful creature ever! Look Jerry, she’s gorgeous!”
And the Jerry goes, “Really? Maybe in this building, or in this hallway, but not ever. Really? Ever? No. I think you should sit down before you hurt yourself.”
That is a real dialogue that happened in my head.
Which is why I never talk to pretty girls, because I’m too busy laughing at my own thoughts.
I’m an idiot.
Yeah, so 2012 right? It’s been a classic fuck up of a year. Here’s why: I started taking myself seriously. That’s mistake number one. I started thinking that I needed to get my life together, start focusing, getting things done etc. So I changed my blog theme and started getting serious about social media. The absolute turmoil sets in when I realise that the things that I believe in and hold dear are not exemplified in what I’m trying to become. I don’t believe in fancy cars or cool clothes. I don’t give a shit about settling down and having a family. So to try and mould my life around those things was forcing me to really hurt myself inside. Why was I doing it? Why? Who the hell knows? Not me.
Anyway, changed the blog theme back to something a lot less formal, and I’ll forget about the ‘serious’ garbage. Life isn’t serious. We’re not meant to frown a lot and be sad. We’re supposed to enjoy it. We’re supposed to relax and enjoy it.
Anyways, that’s my apology. To you, but really to myself. Sorry for trying to be serious and important. I know it upset me and you and us.